Tuesday, June 07, 2011

Not Sure What to Expect

   Today I'm hoping to register for my last year of classes and get started on filling out student loan forms. It's always nice to get that bit out of the way, less to think and worry about.

   What's mainly been on my mind these last few months is all about the direction of my life and ultimately where's this schooling going to take me...if anywhere. Not that I have doubts about my future rather the more I think about finishing school up the more I realize how badly I want a new job but am too scared to leave it till I'm complete school. Typing for hours and hours, days on end just isn't cutting it for me mentally.

   Yet even though the idea of being done my job after school and starting something new is rather exciting what terrifies me even more in the fact that I have to find a job that's apparently better or else keep this job and start getting serious about building my own side business. This is slightly stressful because currently I have no clue, no experience or the equipment to really know what to do. Would there even be a demand out there? I'm worried about how I'll ever pay off student loans and if this schooling choice was even a good one. What if I seriously don't have the skill and all this work is in vain?

   I've got one year to finish things up with my education and get rolling with what I want to do in life. I'll just keep repeating, I can do it. I can do it. I can do it. I hope I can.


Emme said...

you CAN do it! you have some serious talent and skill and, from the sounds of it, good work ethic. i'm sure you'll find your niche and everything will work out wonderfully. i can still remember being in total awe while sitting next to you in our art fundamentals class (was this what it was called?) watching you paint and sketch up a storm and i'm sure many, many others will see that in you as well :)

Pirate of The Napkins said...

I know how that feels, I've still got a few classes left myself. Let me know if you figure out how to take the next step, because I'm also searching. :)