Thursday, April 02, 2009

What's it Like?

I've never really paid much attention to women who were pregnant until recently when a coworker discovered that she was going to have a child. Because I see her almost every day it's come to my surprise that I can see a change in her almost every day. It's crazy how quickly her stomach is expanding.
This week she's proudly come to work with a new outfit for each day...maternity clothing. She outgrew her regular size shirts and pants and had to do a complete overhaul for her wardrobe. Something I'm sure no women would complain about except for the reason that it's SO expensive. But anyways I don't think she's looked so pregnant as she does now that she's wearing baby belly conducive outfits.
I've also learned quite a lot that I never really thought about for pregnant women, such as how she can't lay on her belly anymore when she sleeps because it's becoming very uncomfortable and that she's altering her whole eating schedule and has to eat every two hours, well like a light meal like an apple with peanut butter here, crackers and cheese the next hour, and maybe a bowl of soup the next, but all this stuff I never really thought about. And then theirs all the biological changes....SHEEEEeeeessh that's something in itself!
I had a dream last night that I was pregnant and it's something I haven't been able to shake out of my mind all of today. I keep looking at my stomach and wondering what it'll feel like to have a life inside me or how I would handle even the little tasks like reaching up to grab a bowl from the staff kitchen.
A rush of excitement would come every once and awhile but that'd soon be stopped as soon as I'd think about I'm only 22 I can't get pregnant when I'm married....not yet...there's NO way I'd be ready! I think in my mind everything has to be planned and ready....but what if like my coworker it comes to our surprise and we find out we're going to have a child...then what? I'm way to selfish right now and want to much for myself that I think it'd be very unwise to bring a baby into the picture...but then could I not be in awe and excitement?! Regardless I'm VERY much desiring to hold off for years....but today just really got me thinking....what would it be like to have something in you're stomach....strange I think!!!! Haha so I'm happy being me right now!!!

1 comment:

Jenee said...

hahahah you are hilarious! I can't wait to see you prego! =)