Why do I always changed my mind? One week I'm sure I'm sure I have the next step of my life figured out and within one day everything changes again.
Can't I just be 100% sure of whats happening a year from now, a month or even a day from now would be lovely! Haha oh but who am I kidding this is all just the wonderful world of growing up! :)
Actaully it's really not that bad. The other week I had someone tell me I'm doing a good job at growing up and keeping a steady head amongst all that's going on. It was nice to hear but surely they had no clue what's going on in my completely unorganized mind. Yet encouragements always nice to hear because it's telling me that maybe I'm not going to go off a tangent path from where I should be. Maybe I am ok and though nothings making much sense right now well maybe I really am keeping a level head. I'm not completely off and utterly lost.
“O Lord, I know the way of man is not in himself, it is not in man who walks to direct his own steps.” Jeremiah 10:23
Sometimes I wish I had a straight forward, hard to miss sign from God about what exactly I need to do when August comes but right now all I can do is wait and fall back on what I promised myself from the start of things, a year ago when I knew what I wanted, even though that in itself isn't all that clear. Everything seems so vague but at lease I have peace about that one crazy decision.